I hope you know....

So I was in Target shopping, that part is not unusual but the fact it was late and I didn't have one of the boys or my dad with me was. I thought I would get in a quick "oh crap -Christmas is 10 days away and I don't have anything bought" kind of trip to the store. I was a little tired an emotional ( I get honestly from my mom-meaning I cry easy). I went over to the book area /movie area and picked up a random book titled I Could Keep You Small Forever. As I read a few pages I instantly start crying and I am sure other customers were scared . I believe you meet others or read/hear something because you were meant to at that point in your day or life. I must add that this normally happens when we allow God to guide our paths and not make our own road maps.

The story was of a mom holding her little one doing all of the wonderful things we do (no pics of a mom holding a puck pan at 3am and drinking 4 cups of coffee though in this book-lol) such as swinging your little one at the park-watching them learn to walk-playing in the bath tub-and being rocked to sleep. What struck me is that it showed these things and then said but if you didn't grow up and I kept you little the mom couldn't experience the new wonderful experiences such as watching your child ride their bike with a big smile and the wind blowing in their face, as simple as watching your child hit the game winning run, or get excepted to the college they wanted to go to.

I go through this every day with wanting my boys to stay little forever. But I never stop to think that I am having as much fun watching what is next!! I get as excited watching Day make the game winning strike out in a baseball game-as I did when he learned to ride his bike (at 3 but who is counting). I love watching Skylar dance and play baseball indoors as I did watching him smile at me as I just held me. I think the message sent to me last night was that Life Happens!! I don't want to get caught thinking of what was and miss out on what is!!

I picked this pic with Daylan to post because it is one of my favorites. We were in Florida for Christmas the month before Skylar was born. I hope both my boys know that they will always be my babies, I cherish each little moment with them while at the same time I am excited to see what they have up their sleeve next for me!!

The leaves are changing their color

The leaves are changing their colors really has greater meaning than "the leaves turning colors". I looked up the other day and noticed Daylan my "oldest baby" was growing up!! I am not sure if it was his height or his new pant or shoe size or the fact his voice sounded a little deeper. Keep in mind he didn't believe me-he had to hear it from his 18 year old cousin Aaron to tell him before he believed it. It is funny how you can feel like you walked up stairs to change the laundry over and it happened. I have to say I still can get great hugs from him and the occasional kiss (just not in public- unless he really wants something). I all of a sudden have this amazing weight on my shoulders of "have I raised him correctly up to 11 to know how to act in public like a gentleman"?? I would have to say, YES. Does he and will he make mistakes. YES. But he will learn from these. I still watch him sleep at night for a few minutes before I go to bed. I spent so much time with it just being he and I (Jamie traveled and Sky wasn't born yet) that I feel like he helped me turn into the grown up I am suppose to be. He has a glorious smile that lights up a room. I love his sense of humor. Okay does he have a middle school attitude and tells not so funny jokes-YEP!! YOU BETCHA!! I do have to get on him for not hanging his towel and yada yada yada so on....but if he wasn't my kid..........I would still think he was pretty cool!! I hope at the end of each day he knows I make sure to tell him enough how much I love him and how he is the reason the sun shines brighter for me each day!! Daylan is so talented at Baseball and has a charismatic personality (minus the fact he thinks he is 30) that it often is put under the microscope for others to make an opinion or jealous remark. That is the price he has to pay for his outgoing personality and drive to succeed and be the best at whatever he puts his mind to. The funny thing is that it actually makes him work harder and motivates him more when someone challenges him or tries to hold him back. I don't know what he will be when he grows up, I hope 1st and most HAPPY, but whatever it is.....he will be the best at it.

Skylar and Daylan are 9 years apart and what is the best is that I am not sure either one of them realize this. They actually argue as though they are 11 and play as if they are 2. God had the plan of how many years they would be apart. I never understood it, but now I think I do a little bit more than before. Day and Sky bring out such great and not so great qualities in Jamie and I. At the end of the day we are a family. We may (or should I say me) not text book with nap schedules, tv in the room, the boys sleeping in our bed, cake for breakfast, so many practices and sporting activities for 1 child we need a color coded calendar and 2 grandpa's running as much as we do to get it done. However, I do know that at the end of the day , Day and Sky might think Ketchup is in food pyramid but they also know their dada and MOM love them more than anything in the whole world.

So as the leaves change colors and we look for a new home (we sold our house!!) we will try to -I'm sure-think of their needs first in a home!! With so many differences than my husband in almost everything, our boys needs coming first is always our 1st priority.

Summertime is Here for the Nanny Boys

Summertime is filled with lots of plans and ideas for a parent...aka micromanaging momma!!

I tend to relate back to my childhood of leaving the house in the am and playing all day with neighboorhood kiddos until dark. Acutally thinking back this may of been a rule....and we only had our imagination and bikes to lead us on the adventure. Now we have "Don't leave the driveway or Ride your bike off the sidewalk". Oh and my favorite is limiting TV and video games. However it is hard to tell Day not to relax out of the heat when he gets more physical activity than 10 kids put together. I love the idea of going to the pool and hitting the zoo as much as possible.

Daylan plays baseball most weekends and practices during the week- so that expands our travel a little bit to Michigan, Ohio, and IL. Sky loves the "hotel life". He runs up and down the hall and loves playing ball with the big boys. The funny part is- he watches so much baseball that he is REALLY GOOD. It is borderline freaky for others to witness. They think he is going to toss the ball softly to them on the ground. OH NO....get ready it is coming in full spead ahead.

I don't think Sky does anything softly thougth. Including his john deer tractor. Move or be Moved should be written on the motorized vechicle. With shorts, rain boots, and helmet he hits the path of cul-da-sac to front yard around to the back and then start all over again. He is a very serious driver to say the least!!

I am excited about all of the new adventures we can endure this summer. I hope to help create summer memmories for both of the Nanny Boys!!

Throw the schedule out

This past weekend was set aside for baseball for Daylan in Greenfield. Skylar and I stayed home on Saturday because I thought it might be muddy or rainy. We did make it on Sunday for both games. It always amazes me how well Skylar does at the baseball games. He loves watching "DAyyyyyy" as Skylar says.

I am trying to make sure that both Daylan and Skylar know that they have my love an attention at all times-even when I am not there. It sometimes feels like we have to have 1 parent per boy to get anything done, but we make it work. I had a list of what I was going to get done yesterday!!!! What felt awesome was to throw out all to do's (very unlike me) and go with the flow with my family. I always joke that I need a tattoo on my arm that says "Be there". I want to be in the moment when with my boys and not worried about unimportant activities or to-do's!!

Skylar Rhain Nanny 20 months old!!

Skylar turned 20 months old on the 23rd. I can not imagine a world with out he or Daylan. They make me smile!!

Let Jesus Take the Wheel

I am living everyday life with my boys. As a normal morning at the Nanny Household turns into a "get up we are running late, oh crap we forgot to pack your lunch, Skylar let mommy put on your shoes, oh I am almost out of gas -where's the bank card?? kind of blessed morning"!!

As I am driving the boys to school and daycare I realize that maybe I should consider letting Jesus take the wheel as Carrie Underwood so graciously reminded me in song today!! So I turned to Daylan and told him at anytime he is stressed today (I know 10 year olds with stress??) turn his hands to God and give his challenges to him to help guide and lead him. Daylan being Daylan looks at me and raises his eyebrows to only turn his hand in a cupped manner as to only appease me!!

Oh well, at least that was our going to school message today. I am thinking we need not to just talk the talk but walk the walk when it comes to God.

Loving Life

I am inspired to start this blog by a new friend who is 18 months old, Dylan.

His mom, Emily, is incrediable and does a great job sharing about Dylan, so needless to say I am wanting to start a blog about my wild 2 blessings, Daylan (10) and Skylar (20 months)!!